I needed a minute
To gather myself
Picking up the pieces I dropped along the way
I made it here in one piece
Only one piece of the jigsaw puzzle
–
I needed a minute
Before you noticed me
And yelled at me to come inside
Let me find my grit
And smear some on my face
For you
Or for me
I’m not quite sure
–
I needed a minute
To breathe
To think
To not breathe
To not think
–
I needed a minute
Without you
Just a minute
I’ve realized I need to remind myself that the world is not ending.
Somewhere along the way, I figured all the stores are closed and school is closed, so I should be too.
This is it. Accept it. We don’t get nice things anymore.
But then I hear other people are going out.
Having experiences.
Seeing people.
Doing things.
Living their lives.
And then I remember. Huh. Maybe I should too?
Staying home is nice.
Safe.
Warm.
Comfy.
But is this what I want?
I’m so tired.
Weary.
Sad.
Numb.
But is this what I want?
Sometimes I don’t know what I want.
Oftentimes I change my mind.
Or my mind changes me.
Just remember, self: the world is not ending
And neither are you.
Day 22: Pepper Day!
Used up
empty
never enough
yet still pretty
in its emptiness
the little flecks
of ground-up energy
paint the sides
like sand left behind after a wave on the beach
nice while it was here
but now it’s gone
all too soon
Day 19
I saw a rainbow today
It started out faintly
And it was only a few degrees of curvature
At first
But then
The showers persisted and the sun pushed through the clouds
It happened gradually
Until I could see the entire beautiful arch
Shine brightly against the dark sky
I turned my back to take a selfie
And I was blinded by the
Bright. Warm. Sunlight.
Day 4
what if you just started writing
to see what came out?
like clawing up a big rock
that was slunk halfway down
into the damp soil
earthworms, rolly pollies wiggle underneath
not eager to be disturbed.
like excavating a dusty old box
you found in the attic
in the corner, under a pile of photo albums
musty papers, keepsakes, ticket stubs, diplomas
memories
seep out of pores
impossible to arrange back in
the way you found them.
masks
wipes
spread
quarantine
shelter
flatten
curve
homeschool
sanitizer
testing
antibodies
reopen
protest
asymptomatic
immunity
pandemic
Covid.
fear
panic
hypervigilance
numbness
lost
lonely
anxiety
anticipation
faith
kindness
love
hope.
Thanksgiving is almost over and I need to post on my blog
Today my kid got licked in the face by a dog
Food was eaten, some got sauced
We watched the Packers who sadly lost
Today’s California weather was unseasonably cold
We visited with family young and old
We ate turkey and pie
Until I felt like I might die
How very very thankful am I
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